Well here we are finally! The last day of 2020 and I can honestly say I have never seen anything like it in my whole 25 + years of teaching. I have gone from online teaching to classroom teaching then back to online teaching, back to classroom teaching again and now by choice back to online teaching. It has been quite the rollercoaster ride! Not only has it rocked my world as a teacher but it has rocked my daughter's world as a student. For kids with a two parent loving family with a stable home life it was probably not easy as well. But my daughter already had an unstable family life. She had change from one week to the next as a kid of joint custody and now change during school hours. I have cried many a tear over these changes not only as a teacher but as her mom. I have been here and then not been here but hoped as a 13 then 14 year old she was mature enough to handle the responsibility on her own. I was ready to let her fly. That was not the case.
I had taken a job in another county and tried to help set her on what I thought was a successful schedule of her own. It was dicey the first nine weeks but not great the next. So I made that choice. I have chosen to work from home online again. I started remembering back to that time in my adolescence when I was alone quite often after school. How I felt so insecure because I was still a kid yet also felt adults should leave me alone because I'm almost in high school! But there were so many days I longed for my mom to be there after school. To advise and tell me how to improve my time management, study habits, choice of friends, etc. I would have never admitted to it back then. I envied my first cousin who had all of those things.
The choice to work from home again has not been not an easy one. But I know I cannot get this time back in my daughter's life. I know her struggles with school during this pandemic are my biggest concern and far outweigh my need for working outside the home. Guiding her and giving her a sense of security is my top priority in life. So I pray for guidance, provision and perseverance in 2021. May God bless us in the year ahead.
I had taken a job in another county and tried to help set her on what I thought was a successful schedule of her own. It was dicey the first nine weeks but not great the next. So I made that choice. I have chosen to work from home online again. I started remembering back to that time in my adolescence when I was alone quite often after school. How I felt so insecure because I was still a kid yet also felt adults should leave me alone because I'm almost in high school! But there were so many days I longed for my mom to be there after school. To advise and tell me how to improve my time management, study habits, choice of friends, etc. I would have never admitted to it back then. I envied my first cousin who had all of those things.
The choice to work from home again has not been not an easy one. But I know I cannot get this time back in my daughter's life. I know her struggles with school during this pandemic are my biggest concern and far outweigh my need for working outside the home. Guiding her and giving her a sense of security is my top priority in life. So I pray for guidance, provision and perseverance in 2021. May God bless us in the year ahead.